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Day 4: Paid Time Off
@azrielappreciationweek
âTheyâre incredible,â Feyre said in awe.
Her eyes glowed from the light of Starfall and also from the couple dancing in the middle of the ballroom.
Rhys felt his heart warm at the sight. Y/N and Azrielâs yearly dance. The first one in fifty years. It made him feel a comforting sensation that everything was as it should. Their dance truly ment a lot to everyone in their family.
âThey truly are,â he answered her. âSurprised?â
âI never expected them to be such good dancers,â Feyre stated.
Rhys did agree with her. Their beautiful movements surprised him every year.
âY/N would ask Azriel, Cassian and I to dance every year at Starfall. We always said no. Weâre warriors. Warriors donât dance ballroom dances. Then, suddenly a year, Azriel said yes. I think Y/N was just as surprised as the rest of us,â Rhys chuckled a little as the memory.
âWhat made him say yes?â Feyre seemed almost in trance looking at their careful and steady movements. The love that bloomed from their gazes could be seen through the entire room.
âIt was their first Starfall as a couple. None of us knew, but we probably should have guessed it. Starfall has always been an important day for the two of them. And, of course, none of us know why.â
Y/N and Azriel ended the dance with a small kiss before they made their way back to Mor and Cassian. Azrielâs hand was carefully placed on Y/Nâs back and his shadows still held her dress, making sure she didnât trip on it.
âBut that doesnât explain why theyâre so good at it. I never would have been such a good dancer if I only danced once a year.â
âY/N loves dancing,â Rhys explained. âI still remember her coming crying to my room after she had started the âwife-trainingâ as we called it. She hated the thought that she enjoyed a part of it. But she absolutely loved dancing. I have a theory that they dance all the time when nobody is around.â
âIt should simmer for five minutes,â Azriel said before he moved over to you.
You sat at the table, trying to find the right place for the puzzle piece you held in your hand.
Azriel picked the piece from your hand and immediately put it in the right spot. He laughed as you let out an annoyed sigh.
âCome here, love,â he said as he pulled you up from your chair.
You couldnât help but smile when you realized what it was he wanted.
Azrielâs strong hands held your waist as you moved through your kitchen. Your arms were wrapped around his neck. Your feet were moving together in carefully chosen patterns.
Your smiles and small laughs only grew as he lifted your hand from his shoulder and twirled you around.
The song you danced to was the song that played the first Starfall you were together. A memory you would pull forward and send into Azrielâs mind every time you danced.
His hazel eyes were looking deeply into yours and your violet ones looked back. Your smiles lightened up your entire face.
With a last twirl Azriel dipped you down and his lips met yours.
It was incredible how he still managed to give you butterflies even after centuries of being mates.
He pulled you up again and gave you another small kiss before he let go of you.
âThe dinner should be done now,â he said and moved towards the stove.
And as you stood and admired your mateâs beauty you got reminded once more that it really was the little things that made life special.
Divider by @cafekitsune
#acotar#azriel#azriel fanfic#azriel x reader#azriel x y/n#azriel x you#azriel shadowsinger#azriel x rhysand's sister#rhysandâs sister#azrielappreciationweek2024#azriel appreciation week
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personal stylist
summary | san helps jieun before she goes out
circa | august 2024
contains | 1.1k words, words, fluff, implied nudity at the beginning, jisan are just cuteÂ
notes | i honestly didnât think i was going to finish this anytime soon but i started using a writing sprint bot and it actually really helped đ but i hope you guys enjoy!Â
taglist | @teezingsiyeon @moonkyeom @itzynabiÂ
San walked out of the bathroom, a towel around his neck that he used to dry the few stray droplets of water falling from his hair. Â
On the other side of the room was Jieun, sitting at the desk with her phone propped up like a mirror. A straightening iron rested on top as Jieun sprayed heat protectant all over her hair.
âChoi San, put a shirt on!â she exclaimed, seeing the older boy in the corner of the screen.Â
He grinned sheepishly, opening his drawer to pull out a shirt. âMy bad.â After slipping it over his head, he rubbed his hair with a towel to get rid of the excess water. San looked over at the girl, quietly watching as she sectioned her hair before picking up the straightener, using it to curl her hair.Â
Curiously, he walked closer to her, taking a seat on the bed beside the desk.Â
âWhatâs the special occasion?â he asked with a small tilt of his head. âYou never curl your hair.âÂ
Without looking at him, Jieun shrugged. âI donât know. I just felt like it.âÂ
âAre you going out?âÂ
She nodded, continuing to curl her hair piece by piece while he watched. âWooyoung-oppa asked if I wanted to try out a restaurant he heard about. Apparently they have really good steak.âÂ
âJust the two of you?âÂ
âI guess so.âÂ
San stood up, slowly reaching in front of the girl before carefully taking the tool out of her hand.
âHere, let me help.â
âItâs ok, I can do it myself.â She looked over at him, reaching for the straightener, though he held it out of her reach.
âItâs fine, I got it,â he responded, taking a section of hair. âBesides, I know you hate curling the back of your head.â
She looked at him through the reflection of her phone, watching the older boyâs concentrated face as he carefully curled each section of her hair before placing it over her shoulder to keep it out of the way.Â
âWhereâd you learn how to curl hair?âÂ
Upon her question, a small smile made its way onto Sanâs face.Â
âI have an older sister, remember? Sheâd complain her arms were tired and make me do her hair for her,â he chuckled. âPlus, Iâve been watching the stylists curl your hair for the last- what? Six years? I think Iâve picked up some things in that time.âÂ
Jieun nodded, continuing to watch as he curled her hair through her phone screen.
âWhat restaurant are you guys going to?â San asked.Â
She shrugged. âIâm not sure. He wanted to keep it a surprise.âÂ
The older boy nodded, quickly glancing at her reflection before looking back to her hair. âYou guys have been hanging out a lot.âÂ
Jieun thought back to all her recent hangouts with the boy. Just the night before Wooyoung had come over to their room to watch a movie with her, but surely they hadnât been hanging out so much that it was worth pointing out?
âMaking up for lost time, I guess,â she eventually answered, slight confusion in her voice at the sudden comment.Â
âDid he ever tell you why?âÂ
The girl froze for a moment, glancing at the phone screen to see San watching her, having temporarily stopped curling her hair to gauge her reaction. After a second of hesitation, she slowly shook her head.Â
âNoâŚâ she answered slowly, shaking her head immediately afterward and giving a tight-lipped smile. âButâŚitâs fine. Heâll tell me when heâs ready.âÂ
Before she could look at Sanâs reaction, a notification on the top of her phone screen distracted her. Jieun reached forward and grabbed her phone, opening her messages to see what sheâd been sent.
Wooyoung oppa: You almost ready?
She read the message over a couple times, fingers hovering over the keyboard as she tried to decide what to say. A chuckle behind her made her raise her head despite the fact that she couldnât see her reflection.
âIâm almost done, donât worry,â San said, having read the message over her shoulder.Â
Jieun smiled, humming as she turned back to her phone.Â
Me: Yeah, Iâll be done in a bit
Without waiting for a reply, Jieun locked her phone and placed it face-down on the desk before adjusting her posture. She let out a small sigh, waiting patiently as San continued on her hair.Â
A couple minutes later, San placed the straightener back down on the desk. He ran his fingers through her hair, brushing out the curls before placing her hair over her shoulders.Â
âAlright, all done,â he said, taking a step back.Â
Jieun stood up, walking over to the mirror to see the results. The moment she saw her reflection, a wide smile spread across her face.Â
âYouâre better at curling my hair than I am,â she commented, brushing a few parts of her hair. Jieun turned to the older boy, who watched her with a fond smile. âThank you, oppa.âÂ
San shook his head as he walked up to her, patting her on the head before moving back to his bed.Â
âYou should get changed now. Donât want to keep Wooyoung waiting too long, do we?âÂ
Jieun immediately nodded and without waiting, turned back and opened her drawers. She looked through her clothes for a couple seconds before picking out a few pieces and throwing them over her shoulder. With one final smile in Sanâs direction, Jieun retreated to the bathroom.Â
She emerged a couple minutes later, wearing a white dress with a brown leather jacket over it. San watched as she walked around the corner with a sheepish smile, brushing herself off. She looked at him expectantly.
âGive us a spin, Eunnie,â he said with a grin. Jieun laughed as she walked in a circle, placing her hands on her hips. San raised his hand to give the girl a thumbs up. âTell Wooyoung to have you back by 11.âÂ
She rolled her eyes lightheartedly, shaking her head at the boy. âYou sound like Hongjoong-oppa.â Without waiting for a response, she reached for her bag and one of the room keys before slipping her shoes on. Before walking toward the door, she waved. âBye, oppa.âÂ
âHave fun~â San sang, smirking to himself as she disappeared from sight. Â
The moment he knew she was out of the room, San immediately went to his contacts and pressed on one, holding the phone up to his ear. After a couple rings, a âhello?â from the other side sounded through his phoneâs speakers.
âJongho, remember what you were telling me the other day? I believe you now.â Â
#jieun.story#jisan#9th member of ateez#ateez 9th member#ateez addition#fake kpop idol#kpop oc#fictional kpop idol#fictional kpop oc#kpop addition#ateez oc#ateez imagines#kpop oc addition#ateez extra member#fake kpop oc#fake kpop addition#kpop oc idol#atz addition#ateez added member#ateez scenarios#ateez fanfic
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Current favorite cherik fics - pt2
part 1 here
See what I mean when I say 'current'? lol anyway, heres some more. I will probably keep updating this every other week or so
To Know You Forever by sadbigchungus (Star Wars AU!!!)
High-raking Mandalorian Erik Lehnsherr is, much to his chagrin, assigned on a protection detail to solidify the new Jedi/Mandalorian alliance. His charge? None other than renowned scientist Jedi Master Charles Xavier. What he thinks will be a standard mission quickly devolves into something where the stakes are much higher, with the fate of Mandalore and the Republic hanging in the balance.
The stars incline us, they do not bind us by ikeracity, Pangea (top tier stuff, highly recommend - mind the tags!!!)
Intergalactic Federation pilot Lieutenant Charles Xavier is assigned last-minute to a high profile mission: transporting over two thousand prison inmates from an old and overfilled prison complex to a newer, higher-capacity prison stronghold located on the outer reaches of the galaxy. Just as he's settling down for a long and uneventful ride, things take a turn for the worse after the inmates riot and stage a hostile takeover of the ship, leaving Charles to find himself at the complete mercy of cold-blooded killers and facing the chilling prospect that he might not ever make it back home alive.
Special Topics in Mutant Studies by populuxe
The trouble with Charles Xavier isnât just that he teaches genetics and holds terrible views about mutant rightsâitâs also becoming increasingly clear that everyone but Erik seems to love him.
The Eldest of the Gods by lapetitesinge
It's 1928, and sixteen-year-old Charles Xavier is intrigued by the new boy joining him at Eton College. He's thrilled to realize that they may be alike in more ways than one, but there's more standing between them than he can possibly guess.
Playing House by ClarkeStetler, Goosenik
Erik Lehnsherr has been 'fighting for mutant rights' for the last couple years. Some might call it terrorism, but those people were narrow-minded. Unfortunately, this means that when Magda Maximoff died, no one was able to locate him to let him know that his children were without a guardian. Charles Xavier was selected as their foster parent instead, and had been doing an excellent job for the past year. Erik is back now and has no intention of being separated from his children, but working together for the kids is easier said than done. In a different situationâ some anonymous bar in some overpopulated city, perhapsâ Erik would absolutely have been interested. He was slender and looked about Erikâs age, but his eyes took up the majority of his face and were almost alarmingly blue. His dark curls looked like they were made for a hand to fist in. His anger was nearly palpable, sparking off him in waves that Erik could physically feel. Under any other circumstance, heâd be attracted, would have immediately started things working to get the pretty little Englishman back to his place. Not this circumstance. âYou will not,â the Brit snarled at Erik, âNot be taking custody of my children.â
#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#xmen#cherik fic#cherik fic rec#cherik au#fic rec#current favorite
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I know this is basic asf but I kinda wanna get ur writing style, can u do a Lando one where sheâs a McLaren driver and the just flirt?
Also do u write like papayatwinks or does she help u or something
(Ig you be the judge if i write like her or nah.. Its been a minute [4 years lmao] since I've written a fic but I got this soooo)
Anything for you, my prince
Warnings: none, maybe use of y/n. Is that a warning? idk lmao
W/c: 506
Pairing: Lando Norris x driver!reader
A/n: FIRST FIC BABYY. Enjoy ig :) donât come at me for wrong names of people on the staff i tried my best thank you. I also used a random Gp and McLarenâs results are not accurate here.
Summary: The team has doubled down on Landoâs championship fight, so when Lando reaches Y/n, team orders are put in place but Y/n doesnât let him go without a little fun.
AND ITS LIGHTS OUT AND AWAY WE GO
Y/n started on pole. She sped past max and kept the lead with Lando close behind in P5 after a bad quali.
âPerfect start y/n, now just keep the lead and this could be a good result for the teamâ, her race engineer said over the radio.
She knew she would probably have to give the position to Lando soon as operation âLN4THEWINâ was fully in swing at McLaren.
By lap 34 she was still in the lead. Lando however had gained many positions and was trailing close behind in P2 now.
âLando is behind you y/nâ, her race engineer reminded her of her teammateâs position.
âHas he asked for team orders yetâ, she asked him jokingly.
âErm⌠no I donât believe soâ no he hasnât.. why?â
âWell, wouldnât whiny little Lando want to pass me without a fight? That cute little baby would never hurt meâ, she giggled into her radio.
âWill, whatâs my gap to Y/n?â Lando asked his engineer.
âErm, Lando youâre at 1.3 sec of Y/n you can attack at this pace in the next 2 laps.
âShe also asked if you had requested team orders yetâ, Will told Lando with mild confusion in his tone.
After hearing this, Lando chuckled and tried to increase his speed on his old tires. But, Y/n kept pressing.
âTell her I donât need Team orders to overtake her,â Lando told Will.
Two laps later and he was still behind Y/n
âY/n were going to need to swap positions. Lando is clocking in better speeds right now and itâs for the good of the team.â
She wanted to scream and drive that eyesore orange car into a ditch. She wasnât a quitter; she didnât want this season to go like this, but it had to be done, unfortunately.
âLemme guess, Lando put in a special request?â, she asked, mildly annoyed.
â
âHaVE YOu ToLD HEr yET??â, Lando yelled into his radio. Two laps till the last lap and he was stressed. His championship would be almost locked in with this win and he- sorry the team needed this desperately.
âYes we have informed her of the team ordersâ
Three corners later and y/n opened the gap for Lando to pass.
âCan you open my radio for Lando to hear?â, y/n asked her engineer.
âYeah, why?â
âI want to speak to Lanâ...
âYour position your highness,â she said raising her hand in a little wave for Lando as he passed.
ââ
âSo you think thatâs funny?â Lando asked her
âYes, you donât?â She turned her head to him as he approached her at her computer.
âYou made me look like a whiny baby, thatâs a bit humiliatingâ Lando sat next to her in the swivel chair.
âI donât think itâs humiliating.. Lord Norrisâ She bowed in mockery of his embarrassment.
Lando laughed, âGet outa here, and fetch me my hoodie over thereâ, he pointed to the chair next to her
âAnything for you my princeâ
#asthmatic posts#asthmatic writes#Quel's Fics#lando norris fanfic#lando norris x driver!reader#lando norris x reader#lando norris fluff#lando norris#f1 fic#f1 fluff
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i was given marching orders to read 'the secret hours' as i had many questions pertaining to molly doran and lamb's relationship with her. i've finished it so now i need to have a think with you all. đ
most of molly's pov felt strangely like standish's usual pov. i guess because they both possess that bookish quality about them.
apparently nicking scarves isn't a new preoccupation for lamb so my headcanon re: scarfgate is that standish bought a scarf, jackson stole it and she had to buy a new one to replace her old one. that's why they look almost identical.
i suppose neither mick herron or will smith knew this at the time that s2 was written or filmed, but lamb knew dickie way better than any of us have been led to believe.
i wrote out the timeline from when lamb's stasi joe was killed to when partner's death/the standish saga begins and there's seemingly no time at all between the events. everything happened within a span of three years give or take.
there's a line of dialogue or two that mentions river being born/cartwright becoming a granddad and i enjoyed that.
also the seeds were planted for the creation of slough house back then too via dialogue and i thought that was v crafty.
i had assumed that lamb and molly had a longer, possibly romantic relationship but they definitely did not. she knew him for a month, slept with his friend/asset, was involved in a bombing and then didn't see or speak to lamb for fifteen years. idk why i'm bummed by that. it didn't satisfactorily explain to me why lamb and molly seem so warm with each other in the books/on the show. also i think i wanted some assurance that lamb had loved/is capable of loving someone? idk i wanted to meet a version of him that isn't exactly the version of him we have now.
final thoughts: a HUGE part of my lamb and standish obsession is trying to work out why standish? what was so special about her that made lamb do x, y and z before and after partner's death? and i guess this book helped me refine the 'he felt guilty' angle of the why standish? question a bit better... but it STILL doesn't all the way work for me? what happened to molly happened relatively close to partner's death and she essentially ended up being a victim of partner and cartwright too. so why not molly? instead of standish, why didn't he take on molly? is it because he felt molly had betrayed him in berlin, going to cartwright when he'd asked her not to? was it because molly knew ALL OF THE THINGS and in order to start fresh, he needed someone around who knew NONE OF THE THINGS? please, i need to understand! what was it about standish that made him cling to her and never want to let go?
#slow horses#SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT!!!#these are just my off the cuff thoughts#i literally just finished it on the train on the way to work#and now i need to YAP and be YAPPED AT about it so i can work out what i actually feel about what i read
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Boop Thanks You!
Happy birthday!
#I decided April Fools Day is now her birthday#thanks a lot tumblr#I promise this wasn't supposed to be a self-indulgent post it was thankfulness I promise#also new canon info: Boop can talk. but she's very soft-spoken#she feels most comfortable talking to GG. which resulted in her main communication tool being GG#essentially#GG talks for Boop#but aside from that#ty people so much for all the stuffs!#This is probably the best April Fools Day I've ever had!#granted April Fools Day isn't really too special aside from the jokes#but I guess that's what made it so special this year#one big coincidence and a lot of dedication!#hehe#thank you people#I love all of you very much#<3 <3 <3#my stuff#art#spg fanart#spg fanbot#boopsy doodle#boop#spg#steam powered giraffe
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prepping for my Bonus Days. i love tutorial agent lmao
#chemi chats#yknow. last year's ''take sundays off'' made a lot of sense.#october 2023 was PERFECT for skilltober as it was a full four weeks (so six days for each skill type per week plus a day off)#and left two days at the end - the 30th and 31 - for Ancient Reptilian and Limbic. so it worked out really evenly!!#using the same method in 2024 does not yield the same clean results hjkjg it looks. so fucking messy gang hgkjg#but generally you can take any 5 days off? it would make sense to split it at the first any five days in a row.#like how we had five sundays last year. so like if we had five mondays this month we'd do free days on mondays right?#but this months was tuesdays and we all STARTED on tuesday SO LIKE HGKJG OKAY MAN. NOW WHAT HGKJ#i want to be posting the same skills as everyone else everyday but that's a bit much to ask yknow? syncing up is fun but its HARD man hgkjg#the reason why im talking about this is because im NOT taking the free days hgkjg or maybe i'll take one who knows lmao hgkj#but my ''free'' days are: Tutorial Agent with the INTs. Solace with the PSYs. Volta Do Mar with the FYSs. Kinetic Dressage with the MOTs.#and maybe Vices thrown in there? i might make Vices physique and put Volta with the psyches? and make Solace a little bonus end?#because i love her and shes special hgkj but i guess i'll see hkjf but EITHER WAY im gonna be posting on whenever free days are hgkj#so if everyone takes sundays+halloween off (except me because im Fucking Entrenched In This Shit) then thats when i'll post#(even though it'd be messy as hell like. splitting up the skill types hkjg??) maybe it'd make sense to do mondays+halloween so we can#finish a skill type section before taking a break/doing my bonus skills? and it'd even out but that requires coordination hgkjsk#sigh. or for me to accept that we'll all eventually fall out of sync and thats fine hgkj (<- I can be fine with this. It's just messy hkjg)#oh idk :P im gonna take my ''break''/bonus days on mondays+halloween and whatever happens happens <33#(<- assuming im gonna be able to finish a monthly challenge lmaooo) okay ive got a headache lmao goodnight i love you all as always <33
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Anyway how is everyone doing
#had to get up at 6 in the morning and therefore had 4 hours of sleep today (a weekly occurence pretty much)#so i just took a nap which took all evening and i'm still tired yayyyyy. because naps only work how they should about 10% of the time#and also i did nothing else today because sleep and now i'm truly wondering what to do with myself anymore#meanwhile i have to get up and go to school again tomorrow đ and the day after that đ and the day after that đ#or i could drop out again and have nothing else to do anyway and continue rotting in my room#(whether it's my dorm room or my actual room doesn't matter). what's the pointtttttt#might be reaching some kind of limit or maybe i'm truly just dramatising and should just chill about it all#save me 4 hours of music listening now probably. idk man#got my minimal amount of social interaction today in the form of riding the elevator with 3 of the ppl from my course#when i could have (and normally would have) just taken the stairs instead#i feel like i made a big important step today that will help me later on through this year (no not really)#at least one thing i've noticed recently is that i might have the reverse of what is i guess is usually called seasonal depression#in the sense that now that it's chilly and cloudy and it gets dark earlier i feel like i'm finally LIVING in a way#the good effect of that will probably pass after a week or two though#but also just a bit over a month left now until my birthday and then my long awaited trip!!#anyone else get unreasonably excited for their birthday each year even though there's never anything special about it in the end#and that only makes the day more depressing lol#ok whatever i'm done whining now i think. music time then#celebrating (a bit late) one year of gratsax and lil beethoven today. some of the albums of all time for me personally#goosepost
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Heya! This isn't really an "ask you"- haha. But I just wanted to write to you- for quite a bit honestly. First of all, I hope you're well. The first piece of work I've read of yours was "Ben & May's". I absolutely loved it. I read it way back in 2020. I was 15 years old, kinda angry at the world lmao. But I found my solace in reading and writing stuff by strangers on the internet. I commented on your story- which in fact was one of the first and only times I ever bothered interacting with someone online. I don't know why, but reading your story made me warm. Warm to the core. And I wanted to share my own story! About how I related to an incident in the fic, because I snuck out of my house with a broken arm to participate in the science fair at school. You responded sometime later and congratulated me and told me to take care of myself. And you said something else too. It might have been in a joking way but you said something along the lines of "You're literally Peter Parker lmao". I don't know why but that really stuck with me. Peter Parker is a character I grew up worshipping, I'd read all the comics and watch every show with him in it with my dad. I've always loved school and learning new things, but it was always hard for me to find confidence. My dad and I are pretty tight but I can't say the same for me and my mom. And for a great chunk of my life, I've had to live with her, which didn't exactly yield the greatest upbringing (which you can probably tell by the way I'm writing to you now haha). So when someone even humouredly made that comparison- I was super taken aback. Super doubtful. But I was awestruck too. I've never been complimented before- in such a meaningful way from anyone other than my dad (that has since changed thankfully, but at the time young me was still recovering from huge life changes). So it really got me to take a good look at my life and actually embrace being who I wanted to be. I started picking up stuff at school again, and I made friends. I started writing. I hung out with my dad more- of course, watched so much Spiderman and read so many comics. I managed to graduate high school early. Now I'm at university. I graduate soon. I took up Biology and Chemical Engineering. And I'm happy. I never really forgot you, or your writing which gave me so much comfort. I logged back on AO3 recently and was super happy to still see you writing. I just knew I had to reach out. Now I apologize if this is like weird, but I just had to put this out there. Thank you, really- thank you for your warm response and the art you put into the world. I don't think you'd even remember my comment on your work or this small interaction, but to me, it made a whole lot of difference. I really hope you're well, and continue to be. I can't believe I made a tumblr account just for this qwq XOXO
BRO I REMEMBER YOU. When your comment came in, I was 17-years-old, living more in the world of my writing than reality, right about to enter university, and even if I was half-joking I was also low-key dead serious that you were literally Peter Parker. I was, and continue to be, incredibly impressed by you. I think I might have told my sister about you in a sort of like, dang, there are some brilliant and crazy people in the world, and they're reading my fics for some reason sort of way.
I'm doing very well! I've grown closer to my family, built lovely friendships, and am also set to graduate university (perhaps predictably, I'm a literature major). As weird as this might sound in turn, a great deal of my confidence and growth was built by comments like yours. There's nothing half as sweet as the portion of someone's life given to you because they saw a bit of their story in yours, and that glimpse of someone else's reality opens up the possibilities for mine. No matter the wonderful little interaction we had, it has been meaningful and a pleasure for me. You've given me a great deal of warmth as well.
Congratulations on the rebuilt confidence, the new things you've learned, the friends you've made, your seriously incredible academic achievements, and the many other delights that I'm sure you've attained. You really have worked diligently, relaxed peacefully (I hope!), and lived wonderfully. Good job, and I hope you continue to live well <3
#asks#this touched me and is gonna stay with me for life ngl#this got long sorry but !!! thank you for writing both that comment and this ask. i'm seriously so grateful#THANKS FOR MAKING A TUMBLR ACCOUNT. I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH#you've given me great warmth as well for real TT#bio&chem eng is seriously crazy amazing work!!!!#exactly what i should've expected from the genius that made a robotics hand work in 2 months as a 15yo i guess#even if our interaction was a catalyst i know that you'd have always done amazingly no matter what#since it was your own efforts that paid off so beautifully#i was not particularly a fan of 'ben & may's' but i think this comment made me fall in love with it#that fic will be special to me from now on#idk if you were joking or not at the time and it WAS four years ago but like#i hope you haven't done anything since the broken wrist science fair incident that required a tracker put on you LOL#and also though it was 4 years ago i hope the county fair was fun#and you've made even more incredible and brilliant things since then! even if simply an incredible life#you're wonderful! please eat and sleep well
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Idk what's going on with me rn but. Idk what to do with a bunch of my sonic ocs anymore. Specifically ruby, their parents, the cat fam, and nox. I just don't feel like I can tell their stories at all. But I don't want to retire them either. But I still feel like I'm slowly growing. Detached?
Idk what I want to do. Maybe a revamp or something? I was already considering redesigning the twins but maybe I need a complete rewrite or something. Idk when I'd get to it tho. I've been in an art rut for a bit now. Haven't felt like drawing at all and I don't feel satisfied with the one thing I tried to make recently (which, ironically, involved ruby and the twins).
Idk what to do.
#ramblings#neg#i guess#i think part of why i feel so lost with them is bc they were meant to be part of a story#whereas characters like livewire and elysium and nebby i kinda just made for funsies?#like none of them were made to be part of anything greater#but with the others. i kind of feel like i failed them#bc i couldn't tell the story they're a part of#and honestly don't know what else to do with them#not in art or writing or. anything#and they're special to me. they really are#i've had them for years. i've been trying to write their stories nearly as long as they've existed but i kept failing#and then i gave up on it. and now it's like. they've lost their purpose?#or more like they can't fulfill their purpose bc of my own pitfalls as an artist and writer#and it hurts. like a lot#and i'm not sure what to do about it#i've been feeling really detached from my work in general and just. haven't been having as much fun with it#maybe it's depression. idk#i'm tired
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i'm such a greenpilled dark jade maxxer but i think ive made people associate me with blue a bit too much. my icon? blue. my blog? blue. my choice of board game pieces? blue. my reason for wanting to be player one in most games? having a blue character. why i want to play as player 2 in super mario for wii? blue toad.
#why is my online and game presence so blue#irl im out there with my green bed and green eyes and green emotional support water bottle and dreams of more#green furniture and my green phone theme and ok. i mostly wear black but most of my clothes that are of a color are green#when i was a kid i always saved these colored pencils of a specific shade of green (dark jade) bc they were so pretty to me#i never said it was my favorite color bc it was so special to me it was a secret favorite color#besides i didnt care for all green as much as thay shade as a kid#now however? i think id say green if someone asked me my fave color#you guys know the post about not having a fave color and someone guessing ita yellow and that becoming ur fave?#i think a similar thing happened to me#some years ago i wa shopping with a friend and she suggested i try something green bc itd match my eyes#and before that moment i was still in my dark jade green is my secret fave color phase#and i also thought green would look awful on me bc im so red (bc of acne. and getting flushed easy. i dont think my undertone is red.)#but it didnt! and the friend complimented me on how much it made my eyes pop out#and then i started looking at green things a bit more and it kind of escalated from there yknow#its fun when something that doesnt mean anything (in a neutral way) to someone. just a one off thought. makes something click in ur brain#leevi talks#man idk what iim even talking abiut here im so incredibly sleepy rn gn everyone
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Where else am I gonna rant if not to a group of random strangers that barely know me, right? So ofc I'm gonna rant here cuz these people have no idea who tf I am.
....turns out I have no words to explain how I'm feeling right now so I offer this emoji instead: đ
#so i went to this 18th birthday aka debut of my friend and tbh its the first debut ive ever been to and i was rly looking forward to it#plan was to enjoy with my friends and all and i was also planning to get some ideas for my own debut whoch is two weeks after hers#tbh my debut is the bday that ive been looking forward to for basically my whole life cuz the other important ages i did absolutely nothing#for my first bday i was literally in the hospital so nothing there. in my seventh bday i cant even remember what happened. we went swimming?#so the 18th is what i always dreamt of. ive already told my moms this a couple hundred times and ive already thought out how i want it to go#then at the party i observed everything and i realized a lot of things. firstly that shit is expensive. while we used to have the money#no we dont and thats all just in the past now. second thing which i find the most disturbing is the amount of people#the debutante invites the special people in their life and while yes i do have those i dont think they can even reach the proper number#and also i rly cant see myself in that position yknow? being the center of atteaction with people telling you nice stuff abt how they like u#so thats made me quite sad that the bday ive always wanted is never gonna be mine. my biggest TOTGA...#at this point i just wanna spend my whole 18th wallowing in self pity and sadness. while i know my friends love me i dont rly think they#love me to the point of throwing me a lil party of our own like we did earlier this year to ine of our friends. im the spare friend i guess#and plus when i got home my paretns arent even talking to me or looking my way if not scolding me or getting mad at me#well IM SORRY i also didnt want to get stuck in the fckin road for A WHOLE HOUR while waiting for a ride home#and IM SORRY that im just wearing jeans to a debut. this is my frist fucking time going to a debut so how tf would i know???#plus a lot of people were just wearing casual so wtf đ#all in all im sad and i want to go die
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DIANA x ALBERT WESKER / template.
#mine.#pair: ewskers#oc: diana#click for better quality âĄ#posting this before i start changing more things lmao but yes i went nuts and made my own psd from scratch... don't look at me#changed ages to birth years cause of how much time passes in the story!! and also gives cheeky fc for you hehe runs away#the checkboxes make me scream like he almost had a clean sweep it's so funny. and he could've had one more i'm not even joking. cause their#first kiss was technically both of them... like idk how to explain this but they were already standing close then diana moved even closer#and was tracing his jaw and such and they were just lingering while holding eye contact but he was the one who actually closed the distance#so i mean... yeah. she was just about to and he beat her to it!! but diana made the move to get them into that position in the first place#is what i mean. i just couldn't give him more it was already too hilarious lmao#can't tell if i like the lil icons but i can't doodle so peace and love on planet earth but yes i'm happy with how this came out hehe#clueless levels are cause they are clowns <3 i have a lot of thoughts about all that but yes they both take hints in some aspects but i#think they both have trouble telling if they are genuine or not or if they are misreading the situation or whether something is romantic or#not (unless ofc it's over the top and ridiculous. ahem. excella. cough. explodes her with my mind) but yeah hit him with the tism so he's#learnt how to read people very well as he's gotten older but i think when it comes to actual just genuine like wanting to get to know#someone and not just someone wanting to get in his pants he seconds guesses it a lot. and diana's all stems from being rattled by her past#experiences oughguhh and i mean her not actually having experienced proper feelings for someone until him lmao but she's got trust issues#also there were so many tropes i could use (thank you to bestie elliot for helping me finds names of things) but i had to do i got you a#drawer specifically because that moment has such a special place in my heart!! like i need to finish the wip where i talk about that cause#it makes me so silly i'm not even joking#anyway omg i hope the mentions work because doing this on the legacy editor after copying the html for beta one because the image just#didn't want to work in the beta image for some reason rip
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hello one more bitch for the road đâđžterf is not a synonym for transphobe. terf is an acronym. tme trans people can be terfs. next scheduled bitchfest is between me our heavenly father amen or to annoy you specifically â¤ď¸
#girl what happened to just saying a person is transphobic⌠i promise your transphobic uncle tim is not a trans exclusionary radical feminist#evidence of life#i had coffe for the first time in god the almighty christ knows uwu teehee#coffee*#so i might be worse than usual đđ#like wow it is definitely affecting my body slay i guess the gap changed my tolerance?#anyways point is i have never been tipsy in my entire life i thought iâd be a light weight given my body type but like nope#thatâs pretty weird to me because iâm fake straight edge [special occasions if they have what i like] and thatâs been rare in the last bit#i havenât had alcohol at all this year and i think the last time was once last summer at a backyard family friend party thingy#iâm not trying find out what tispy and drunk feels like though#so like huge gaps and it doesnât do anything but this coffee which is more regular than alcohol (but thatâs not saying much)#and baby i am feeling it like that is caffeine huh wow#ophelia over sharing on the internet cw oph wonât stfu cw hi :3 ->#iâm having it because i couldnât take my anti psychotics that also help me sleep because i had a late night and an early morning#and i couldnât risk sleeping in#not that i actually wake up at like 6 or 7 or even 5#fastest wake up time was in bed after 10pm woke up at exactly 12:36 am#the good thing is i feel significantly more rested and have more spoons than i before it and before it made the cycle consistent#well the whole cocktail works well together but shout out to her sheâs my babygirl for real <3#also this just reminded me i didnât take my morning meds its still morning itâs fine :3 i just should really get a regular take time for#morning like i do with the night ones it is all a critical science but night ones must be as consistent as possible or i face certain death#<- lie hyperbole#did i reread this [the tags] absolutely not <3#bitchfest presented by oleta ophelia
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why did you guys had to like that damn post about patbri. I just went through a 2020 spiral
#I looked through the tag and it was so strange#it's like everyone who used to post just fucked off from the face of the earth???#and I think I deleted everything from brian I had on my phone as well because there's NOTHING#not a single photo of him on google photos#could find a couple of pat ones but no brian#I can't even remember what made me mad enough at him to do this?!? what happened#I swear 2020 - early 2022 was just a fever dream#everything I see from my life back then sounds like I didn't happen#like??? sometimes I randomly remember I ONLINE DATED someone from tumblr for TWO YEARS#and genuinely thought it was a real thing and we'd be together eventually#like girl what. tumblr. you met them on tumblr. because of a rpf gay ship.#I can't help but wonder what I was on back then#but also... I had so much fun and just general peace of mind#specially in 2020 - 2021#before the covid restrictions were lifted#and I had to face the world again lol#I just.... I'm not even making sense right now. I'm just a little introspective#and not being able to find all the blogs I got content from back then in a simple tag search fucked me up a bit#made me question my own memory and sanity for a second lol#did they all deactivate??? strange. time mystical time I guess#rambles*
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Song of the Day: April 30
"Breakeven" by The Script
#song of the day#cybersecurity videos completed today and we moved on to various types of workplace harassment and bigotry#what fun to complete four years' worth of compulsory office trainings back to back#surely tomorrow I will finish my gen-ed requirements and get to actually learn about finances. surely tomorrow.#anyway I couldn't mute or fastforward today's videos so I gave myself ten minutes to read fic as a special treat after each one finished#and at one point a character in the fic decided to use his heart and not his head and The Script started playing so loudly in my head#and did not leave#anyhow yesterday I said I'd give my two Teen Wolf song-related-fic-recs today and here they are!#fic rec#'with bloody feet across the hallowed ground' by owlpostagain - in which Stiles tells the literal truth! and it's a glorious trick!#absolutely delightful story. ticks over like perfect machinery. hits every emotional beat and then some#and 'The Sound As They Broke It Was Fearsome' by skoosiepants#an interesting setup--Teen Wolf and HP universes sort of merged--the Hale House is infinitely worse than the Shrieking Shack#also good character work but mostly it's the creativity of the merged world and the way it's introduced in the story that catches my mind#very good showing and not telling. what I think of as 'inset exposition' built right into the story#also it's a good song! 'I Guess I'll Forget the Sound I Guess I Guess' by Bodies of Water. some of the most memorable delivery ever#'up til that day I would hear them / and the sound as they broke it was fearsome#that was until your arms opened up wide / and the treasure therein was made mine'
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